things fall down. people look up. when it rains, it pours.

kadang kita diletakkan pada situasi dimana kita nggak bisa berbuat apa-apa. either nggak bisa, atau memang nggak tau aja apa yang harus dilakukan. at that exact moment, gue biasanya suka berpikir debu apa yang akan menclok secara ajaib dan all of a sudden setitik debu aja bisa membalikkan situasi atau sekedar mencelatkan gue dari posisi clueless.

ini rasanya seperti kecebur pasir hisap. semakin berontak, semakin kesedot ke bawah. tapi kalo nunggu orang lewat buat nolongin naik, mau sampe kapan... dah mulai digigitin nyamuk nih.

while doing nothing i remember my favorite line from a not so favorite movie, american beauty : " It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air. And this [plastic] bag was dancing, like a kid begging to play with me. That's the day I knew there was life behind things...this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be affraid, ever. It helps me to remember, and I need to remember... Sometimes there are so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it and my heart's going to cave in."

and at this exact moment i understand that everything just as it should be. things fall down. people look up. biasaaa.... but when it rains, it pours. everything just as it should be, just beautiful, just like the way it is.