the earth is shaking

thunder strikes.
the ground i'm standing, shaking.
wanna throw up.
tears start prickling.
my body turns cold.
i never thought this thing really going to happen right in front of my eyes.
i've been dreading this moment.
never thought going to live to see this happenning.
always thought some miracles going to save me from this.
somehow.
no wonder i've been having this urge to really let go these past few weeks.
this is like your purpose of living been taken away from you.
mana lubang jarum yang biasa dengan ajaibnya gue bisa lolos?
kali ini gue nggak lolos.
this can't be happening.
this can't be.