Friday, October 28, 2005

take a moment

since it's not adviced to dwell in the past, i paid more attention to the present time instead and concentrate to what's going on in front of me at that moment.
this is what i always do when a certain blast from the past just happened.
this time as i watch people passing by in the street, the world revealed one of the most nostalgic things from my childhood.
HELICAK!!!
di antara jaguar, metromini, kijang inova berseliweran, di tengah-tengahnya ada helicak ijo butut dengan kaca bergaya 'kepecah-pecahan', bergerak sangat pelan di jalan gereja theresia. bapak yang mengendarainya pun nggak kalah old school dengan celana berbahan semi wol warna coklat tua, kemeja abu-abu lengan panjang ketits, dan topi 'fedora' lusuh ala abang becak [in this case ala abang helicak] .
this brings me to a thought :
darimanaaaa coba si pak heli bisa memunculkan kembali si helicak yang udah punah 20 tahun lalu. apa di rumahnya itu heli beibi disimpan, dirawat, dan dipake anak cucunya jalan-jalan ke ragunan? kenapa juga dia baru memutuskan untuk jadi 'anak' heli lagi afterall this time? where was he all this time? kemaren-kemaren dia ngerjain apa? mungkin dia mau bikin helicak come back lagi??? heli fully loaded perhaps??
and to another thought :
more than twenty years ago i got into that helicak in this very street, jalan gereja theresia juga, mau ke sarinah thamrin juga. bedanya, i was five years old, rambut dikuncir dua, dan ke mana-mana harus ditemani orang yang lebih tua.
other than that....
it's the same little girl who still feels excited when she sees helicak.

the nostalgic theme didn't stop there yet.
kira-kira 500 meter di depan, ada kakek-kakek naik sepeda jengki tua yang depannya ada keranjangnya, lengkap dengan jas tweed coklat tua, kemeja putih dikancing sampai atas, dan topi pet, plus kaca mata kecil nyaris john lennon lookalike glasses.
he looked vintage.
like coming right out of a sephia postcard.
the scene was just beautiful.
to remind you, jakarta wasn't in its usual hot day. it was cloudy, the wind breezing lightly.

if you look closely, life is just beautiful in so many many ways.

Monday, October 24, 2005

told myself so many times

"can you step your foot to the future when the past still present?"

OF COURSE NOT!
CHUCK THE PAST!
MOVE YOUR ASS!

Thursday, October 20, 2005

just perfect. no matter what.

gue tergolong jarang nonton berita di tv. kalopun nonton, biasanya cuma ngeliat headline yang ada di layar, terus info selanjutnya baca di koran. alasannya karena gue orangnya nggak tegaan. banyak berita yang menggambarkan kesusahan orang, ketidakadilan, keterpurukan.
nggak tega aja gue.

kemaren gue memaksakan diri untuk nonton acara berita sore. sebenernya karena pengen liat suaminya temen gue yang jadi pembawa beritanya, sekaligus uji mental. ternyata gue cuman kuat nonton dua berita. satu tentang ketidakadilan pembagian dana kompensasi, yang satunya tentang massa yang ngamuk sampai membobol kantor pengadilan atau sejenisnya [saking terkesimanya nonton action orang-orang, beritanya malah nggak diperhatiiin].
di berita pertama dikasih liat penduduk dengan rumahnya yang terbuat dari atap seng dan berdinding gedek, berlantai tanah, lagi berseteru sama pemda dan pakkadesnya, memperjuangkan hak mereka untuk mendapatkan duit 100 ribu sebulan. disinyalir pembagian dana yang tidak merata karena ada kecurangan di pihak rt/rw. padahal itu buat mereka makan. BUAT MAKAN. makan kan kebutuhan primer yang kalo nggak terpenuhi, orang bisa mati! kok kayak gitu masih bisa dicurangin. huhuhuuuu...aku sedih. sediiih sekali. nyaris nangis [beneran].
gue berusaha untuk bertahan. nonton terus. jangan lemes dulu. masih banyak yang kayak beginian di luar sana.
berita kedua, massa pada bawa parang, linggis, bakar-bakaran, pagar dijebol. semua orang tampangnya garang seperti kerasukan setan. gelap mata. ngamuknya nafsu.
that's it. nggak kuat gue.
tv gue matiin. ganti pasang cd laura fygi. baca buku hip hotels escape, sambil minum es jeruk ala jaman sd dulu. rasanya tenang dan nyaman. such a luxury to feel that way.
alhamdulillah. life is good.
betapa ironisnya. di detik yang sama, dunia acak adul di luar sana.
still, it's perfect just the way it is. meski kadang nggak bisa dimengerti otak yang cuma sekepal tangan ini.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

take a bite n another n another n another

kalo setengah jam lagi buka terus sekarang berkhayal tentang makanan enak apa aja yang hendak disantap saat berbuka, batal gak ya kira-kira? katanya sih nggak, asal khayalan tidak menerbitkan air liur. lagian alesannya untuk mengisi waktu kok, bukan karena laper...hehe [ngelesssss terouuuuuussss].
menurut gue di bawah ini adalah makanan-makanan terenak di dunia gue, yang nggak bakal bikin gue bosen:
ribs hrc / lamb chop hrc
mashed potato rumour
chicken wings hrc
crispy burger melt hot shots
salmon sushi, salmon sashimi
salmon salad poke sushi
chickbits cavana
iga bakar pak gosong
nasi goreng sirloin lokananta
chicken tempura with wasabi mayo koi
crispy chicken skin salad sushi groove
roast duck / peking duck duck king
caesar salad W / hrc / planet hollywood
salmon flaky pizza W
mushroom & cheese soup campbell
apple strudel corica
catfish mango salad kuppa
tebasaki furaibo

Friday, October 07, 2005

nah lho, nah lhooo!!!

And everywhere I go,
There's always something to remind me
Of another place and time
Where love that travelled far had found me.
[remind me, royksopp]

sod it!

i was once inside this car with this one person, driving around in nite time, when rain's pouring hard.
one of the fuzziest moment in my life.
this song was played over and over...


airplanes take you away again
are you flying above where we live
then i look up, a glare in my eyes
are you having regrets about last night
i'm not, but i like rivers that
rush in
so then i dove in
is there trouble ahead for you, the acrobat
i won't push you, unless you have a net

you say the word you know i will find you
or if you need some time i don't mind
i don't hold on to the tail of your kite
i'm not like the girls that you've known
but i believe i'm worth coming home to
kiss away night
this girl only sleeps with butterflies
so go on and fly then, boy

balloons look good from on the ground
i fear with pins and needles around
we may fall then stumble upon a carousel
it could take us anywhere

[sleeps with butterfly, tori amos]

AAAAARRRGHHHHHHHHHH!!! SOD IT!!!!

don't you ever forget

kadang gue suka lupa kalau di atas langit masih ada langit.
di atas yang jago, masih ada yang lebih jago lagi.
di atas yang ribet, masih ada yang lebih jago untuk menyelesaikan keribetan.
di atas yang tau, masih ada yang m a h a tau.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

pro home schooling

sebagai pengendara mobil yang kerap terjebak macet di jalan, saya menganjurkan agar anak-anak sekolah belajar di rumah saja alias home schooling.
tanda-tandanya sangatlah jelas.
setiap kali anak sekolah libur [seperti sekarang ini sedang libur awal puasa], jalanan selalu lancar selancar minggu pagi.
perjalanan dari cilandak ke menteng hanya ditempuh dalam 35 menit.
[belum bisa dibuktikan apakah perjalanan tanjung priok ke tanjung duren apa sama lancarnya, tapi diasumsikan macetnya jauh berkurang].
jadi, tanpa berusaha menghalangi pendidikan anak bangsa, saya mengusulkan pendidikan home schooling sebagai salah satu upaya efektif untuk mengurangi kemacetan jakarta raya.

Monday, October 03, 2005

swim away dear...

there are some things that just cannot be touched.
covered so tight inside a shell that just cannot be broken.
no matter how deep you reach in.
so you just stand still.
watching it glides in front of you.
untill you can't bear it no more.
better swim away.
away till it fades from your sight.
and when silence sinks in
or star bright storms out
you'll know
that in this circle of life
whatever that might seem to be the end
might be just the beginning.

mellowcaramello

star wish,
you made a mess of my life
cause i wasn't thinking clearly when i saw you falling out of the sky
and all the things I thought I ever wanted were just vain and hollow
and to date, I'm cleaning up the mess you've made of my life

Why'd you see me coming through the thousand others passing you by?

and what I thought I wanted was the worst thing I could think of
and of course, the only thing you'd use to mess up my life

you were there for everything, even though I wished you weren't
and I l e t y o u s l i p a w a y , another case in point
I had everything I needed in my own backyard,
until today
now I have none

I throw quarters, quarters in a fountain
with the hope that one of them will work
and you will change your mind
and then you'll return

and you can find it in your heart to erase these stupid wishes that I wanted
then I'll wish for you the rest of my life

[star wish by alumunium group]

ps: thanks to dweebstarr & mr.morrissey for introducing me to this lovely song, eventhough it means waking up the past.
but just couldn't help it. such a beautiful song. bloody lyrics.