pour il sole

[In a one fine day almost about a two years ago, one of my very beloved friend came to me. Here's what she said to me...
"Mas, kalo aku liat lo tuh kayaknya seru sama dunia lo sendiri. You love life as it does. Lo nggak pernah keliatan terlalu sedih, nggak pernah keliatan marah, nggak pernah kelihatan terlalu seneng juga. Lo bisa nemenin kita jalan-jalan belanja seharian trus dugem, tapi lo juga bisa tinggal di kamar lo yang kecil itu seharian tanpa temen. Umm... kayaknya lo tuh nggak butuh cewek, nggak butuh cowok, nggak butuh temen juga. Tapi lo bisa jadi temen yang baik banget. Bisa bikin orang ketawa dan curhat ke lo... Kalo nurut gue ya, mendingan lo tetep aja sendiri kayak gini. Gue yakin lo seneng kok begini..."
Saya terima benar adanya. Karena saya tahu itu sebelum perkataanya. Nanda, kalo kita ngobrol lagi... there's a thing I want to ask you...
"Is it a bless or is it a curse, being the light for others on my solitude?"
thanks to Nanda... dear, tapi kadang gue pengin ngajak temen buat main-main di kebun strawbery itu, meski end up-nya kebun gue jadi berantakan...]
taken from ilmatto's multiply



Dear Masabi,

It's a blessing AND a curse. Hey, it's LIFE we're talking about, it always have two sides of the story. When you are feeling positive, you'll think of it as a blessing for sure. But when you're feeling down, then it'll be a curse.
It is your choice to assume which one are what.
I'm sure you already knew that.
But for me, it depends on where do you want to spend life. Into something energizing like feeling everything as a blessing, or toward something draining as in seeing it as a curse.
Again it is your choice.
The thing is, when you feel tired and out of energy, it's better not to feel a thing.
See everything go right before your eyes without judging it as a blessing or a curse.
If you cannot shut your feelings, well, just let yourself drown in the deep blue sea of negativity then.
This is Life. It's the law of gravity that you'll float back to surface. Don't worry.
If your strawberry field don't last forever and you weep because it is destroyed, that's okay.
Cry your heart out.
If you ever feel lonely and don't feel it as a blessing, just remember there's this amazing power of the universe that will take good care of you.
Don't worry.
This is Life.
It is designed for humans to experience many things including feeling lonely [and happy, and sad, and loved, and hate, and joy, etc.... semua nilainya sama aja]
And again it's your choice to change that feeling.
So when you asked : Is it a blessing or a curse?
The answer is : It is your choice. And whatever your choice is, don't worry. Life will take good care of you Masabi... :)