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the small corner in my heart shouts its little voice :

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

[something about us - daft punk]

scar tissue

what if you don't get what you wanted?
for me, if it's something i really really wanted, it means a slap in the face.
or drop dead on the ground if it's something i really wanted with every inch of flesh i have.

people have their own way of coping if they don't get what they wished for.
some people take it gracefully with the thought of ' oh well, you'll get something else better. '
some get really down and worse, loose faith in life.

gue baru baca di vogue jennifer aniston diwawancara tentang hidup [tentunya berkaitan dengan mas ipit yang meninggalkan dirinya]. mbak jen bilang : " kenapa orang-orang sering mengeluh 'why these things happen to me? well, it happens to you! life's tough. get a helmet!"

gue sih setuju-setuju aja tentang penggunaan helm hidup, but i guess every once in while you have to ride the motorcycle of life without one just for the sake of feeling the wind breezing through your head, just to feel alive.
and when she says life is tough, well, you just have to find a way to dance with it and not letting it grinding your bones.

a note from a girl who just had her face slapped and still tatters her way to dance with life.

pemandangan yang aneh

rumah gue terletak di belakang kompleks marinir.
jadi hampir tiap pagi ada segerombolan marinir yang berlatih lari-lari sekeliling rumah gue sambil nyanyi-nyanyi ala basic training.
akhir-akhir ini, kayaknya mereka lagi ada program baru yang kalau barisan marinir sedang berlari, sekarang ditambah dengan sekelompok lainnya yang berjalan atau naik motor di sekelilingnya meneriakan kalimat-kalimat seperti senior yang lagi mengospek anak baru.
kata-kata yang keluar nggak begitu jelas lafalnya. maksudnya pun gue kurang paham. apa berniat menghardik supaya suasana penuh tekanan atau justru kasih semangat.

anywaaayyy... tadi pagi setelah gue terpaksa mendengar mas-mas marinir itu teriak-teriak lebih dari 2 jam full, akhirnya berangkatlah gue ke kantor. dan harus melewati rentetan marinir. yang lagi ngadem, yang lagi lari-lari, yang lagi senam-senam, yang lagi jemur baju di jalanan, yang lagi kasih briefing dan dibriefing, yang lagi semacam menunggu sesuatu, dll. dan rentetan marinir yang jauh lebih panjang dengan aktivitas yang lebih beragam daripada biasanya berakhir di ujung jalan dengan lebih banyak marinir yang berdiri di situ. asumsi gue puncak acara akan berlangsung disana. terlihat loud speaker segede-gede gaban sudah tersusun dengan manisnya. nggak lama, suasana jadi agak ackward begitu speaker mengeluarkan bebunyian karena marinir-marinir yang sudah berpakaian lengkap itu berdiri dengan latar belakang lagu EMINEM!!!!

[nonton marinir jogedan pake lagu dangdut atau peterpan udah biasa, tapi eminem?? sayang udah musti ke kantor]

be still

kadang-kadang orang kalo lagi ribet suka bikin keadaan justru tambah kusut.
they think alot. negative things most of the time. and when that happens, the mind usually form a snowball of thoughts. getting bigger and bigger, more and more negative.
and instead of sitting in silence, stand still, and let the negative ball of thoughts melt away, they do silly stuffs. trashing other people and curse life.
for them i usually give this fave quote of mine :

It is not necessary that you leave the house. Remain at your table and listen. Do not even listen, only wait. Do not even wait, be wholly still and alone. The world will present itself to you for its unmasking, it can do no other, in ecstasy it will writhe at your feet.

[franz kafka]

pinstripe blue-white with red polkadots

i always loooovveee weekends!

[well, owkay, not ALWAYS, but most of the times]

no wild parties or anything crazy like that, and sometimes i even have to manage time and squeeze several schedules in. nothing majorly importante, but those little things of having to spend times with parents for lunch, occasionally returning some of the wardrobe from the last fashion shoot that i was too lazy to return on weekdays, tidying up the great big mess i have in my room, having an afternoon coffee with my girlfriends, dinner and a movie with the gang of five, a visit to the bookstore, a lazy sunday stroll with charlie, spend a few hours at the couch gogling at the latest gossip from the infotainment, flipping the latest magazine i haven't got the chance to read on weekdays, feast the eyes and looking at the most sumptuous places on earth on the travelling channel or the hip hotel book series, something like that.

with all those activity cramming my weekends i don't have any time left for the luxury of doing nothing. or even planning to have an early sushi shopping for breakfast since it's too hard for me to wake up in the morning, or going vintage hunting to the bronx side of jakarta.

all in all...
I LUURRVE MY WEEKENDS.
it's as simple and crisp as a white and blue pinstripe on a linen sheet.
as cheerful as a red and white polkadots.

life intersection

there are stories of coincidence and chance, intersections and strange things told, and which is which and who only knows?... someone so-and-so met someone else's so-and-so
and so on.

[taken from magnolia]